The struggle is real.


Sometimes in the middle of taking “cutesy” couple pictures you accidentally get bashed in the head with an elbow as your husband tries to put his arm around you.

Sometimes life is hard.

Sometimes your expectations don’t reflect reality in the worst ways.

Sometimes life far outweighs your expectations in the best way.

Sometimes you expect to lose ten pounds in a week by running two miles once and not eating candy on most days.

Sometimes you want everyone to like you and you want to fit into the mold of a society because you feel like you’re “supposed to”.

Sometimes you feel like a rebellious teenager and don’t want to fit the mold you been trying to fit into.

Sometimes you just have to be you.

Sometimes that means eating ice-cream and shedding a few tears while nuzzling your wet mascara covered face into your husbands shoulder.

Often times I get upset with life and it’s constant changes, other times I get upset at life because of it’s monotony or lack of changes.

As a woman, or anyone really, it’s easy to let our lives be ruled by emotions and to act upon them. How do I feel about what’s going on? Why should I have to be the mature one? Doesn’t anyone care how I feel?  The problem is that as a christian and Bible college graduate I know that my life should be led by Christ and not by how I feel about any given situation at any given moment.

“12 Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 13 For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live. 14 For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God.” Romans 8:12-14 NIV

What do you do when you feel led by life and emotions to get yourself to change focus and look to God rather than your situation?

It’s a process and I want to keep learning, never getting stuck in the routine of emotions that toss to and fro and always learning to look to God more and more.